If it weren't for the overwhelming amount of favourites I have added on this account, I would most likely shut it down voluntarily.

I have increasingly become more distrustful, paranoid, shrewd, and protective in various manners for various reasons including that regarding my works and so forth, which is why there has only been one submission to which I see no one has made any comments anyway, so again, other than the favourites, I am not seeing the point of this site any longer. It was decent to start off with several years ago and slowly went downhill.

My vacation is nearing its end. I have enjoyed it so far. It has, however, been tainted by what ifs and so-as-much-as's and so forth, particular in regards to my female situation(s.) I will be vague because there is only so much that needs to be known.

My options are not many. Other than the disturbing pop at her house with a rose and have the police called on me idea --I'll pass--, I am considering the slightly less risky mail her a belated birthday post-card stating I would like an explanation on exactly what happened and that we can go from there with a reminder that she cannot be reasonably angry at me for me mailing her considering she broke her word first in a far more serious manner than mine. The alternative is I can do what most people would suggest; take the slings and arrows instead of taking up arms and opposing them, which I suppose is the smart thing to do. The "problem" with me is that if I can even slightly affect the change of something for the better, I will at least consider giving it a shot. Either choice seems pretty bleak at this point. On the one hand, even though I mean for her to understand that I wish to be treated as a human being and recieve a concise explanation of why she did something like that I am pretty certain she will take it as me catering to her, chasing her, playing the romantic-comedy role, something I am not a fan of in the least.

Long story short, I gather anyone would be suspicious, hurt, angry, etc. if anyone dear to them at all cut off one of the only means of contact without a word of response to a response to a frivolous and redundant request that makes you gag with the stench of bullshit. Especially if you knew this person for about 4+ years and they have NEVER done anything like this and have pretty much convinced even a skeptical soul like you "yeah, I probably can trust this person."

Start to end so far, I suppose, loosely to roughly in this order: "Boy is naive and his lifelong dream is to meet the woman he loves and have a family which shouldn't be a dream in the first place, boy is Archie in his younger years having crushes on tonnes of girls, boy meets Lust Girl, does not go so well, boy asks to start over and go slow wanting to be serious, Lust Girl says no, boy meets Personality Girl, falls into the beyond looks=love trap, does not go so well and now Personality Girl without realizing it patronizes boy by talking about what a nice guy he was while he thinks "why did I bother?", boy runs into Compassion Girl that he met briefly, wants to protect Compassion Girl, on and off for years, Compassion Girl completely changes boy's perspective, boy is unable to come to terms with anything to having to do with relationships for a while, boy meets Interest Girl, tries to get to know her and proposes to "friend-date" her, does not end well, boy agrees to be just friends but clearly friendship is not the same anymore to Interest Girl, does not end well, boy meets Love Girl, gets to know her for two years, Love Girl "dies" in a car accident, after boy finds out this was a hoax from an overprotective friend, boy eventually tells girl how he feels explaining how even telling people how he feels tends to make things go downhill, they eventually express reciprocation and become mutually serious, things go well for a while until sudden brick-wall stupid request is denied by boy since an agreement was already made, cut off without a response. Boy is not sure if it's even ended, but it will never start again with anyone else. Boy sees no point in being serious with anyone he is not serious about. Boy found Love Girl and may or may not lose her forever. Boy more and more notices girls generally seem to take him for granted whatever the case may be and always have a "back-up" or sorts and/or act like they never knew him in the first place whenever they feel like it.

Now...
-Boy strives to at least get some sort of closure from Love Girl and try to go beyond that?
-Boy gives up on girls save for pleasure where no discernable wrong can occur and hopes Love Girl realizes she did wrong but does not realistically think she would ever admit it?"

What should my decision be?